Doing this as a sort of exercise in dissecting my thoughts so I can have something coherent to tell my therapist lol.
Do you feel you relate well to other auto-zoos and asexual paraphiles, or do you feel alone at times? What’s it like engaging with either community given the other identity? What sort of criticism would you have for the larger paraphilic community and the vocabulary they use in discussing attraction?
Well I only figured out I was an autozoophile like a week ago so I don’t know the answer to most of these. I relate to the one other asexual autozoo I know but I haven’t really explored the community. I think I’d feel alone either way, like I am right now. From what little I see of the paraphilia community there’s a heavy emphasis on writing out your sexual fantasies, and the asexual community is adamant about “you can be ace and still experience sexual attraction” but will MORE THAN LIKELY shun the likes of me. As for my criticism of the paraphilic community, I’d say there needs to be more discussion surrounding its intersection with asexuality, because I’ve been able to find next to nothing on the topic. We should also discuss paraphilias experienced through tertiary attraction!
Do you have sexual fantasies? If so, do you get repulsed by them? Does your repulsion have to do with the fact that you’re not in a body you want to have sex in or do you not want to have sex at all even if you could change your body?
(I hope these questions aren’t worded in an crude way !!)
I have fantasies related to my autozoophilia, but they’re not strictly sexual. It’s more just imagining myself as a crocodilian/turning into one, but there’s nothing much I could really do with that that’s sexual. (As far as I’m aware, anyway.) For the second part, as I tend to say, the only way I would have sex is if I were turned into a critically endangered species and entered into a breeding program. Would I still be repulsed? Probably. But at least I’d be doing something good for the planet. An extra tidbit is that my sex-repulsion mostly comes from the fact that I’m caracal-kin, and if you’re a biology nerd like I am you know that felines have barbed penises and the screams female cats make are of pain, not pleasure. I have this semi-delusion that human penises are the same way, so every time I think about sex it’s associated with the thought of severe pain.
That’s super interesting! Thank you.
