Hi!! I’m having a lot of trouble because since it’s pride month, I’ve been browsing the aroace tags on tumblr. But there’s a LOT of discourse and a lot of aros who aren’t romance repulsed seem to be shoved out… and it makes me feel like I’m not aroace enough? Because I love Alastor and my partner sys… Because I’m in a romantic relationship…
I feel really, really bad… And I don’t really know what to do… Would it be bad for me to take TransAroace (or even just transaro) to cope with feeling inadequate for the community?
I’ve been on the verge of tears because of this all day.
I’m trans orientation in the sense that I wish I wasn’t such a late bloomer. I feel like such a freak not developing sexual attraction until 18, whereas I’d asked my friends (back with my normie friends) and they had been horny for years before being adults. Part of me wishes I wasn’t a late bloomer just because of how bad it makes me feel that I was. I know I shouldn’t because it’s just societal norms or whatever but it makes me feel so bad, I wish I was a horny teen or kid so bad. Even though it’s in the past now
I can kind of understand. Weirdly, it’s the opposite for me! I was a very early bloomer in a lot of respects, and I wish I was more normal in that fact. I didn’t find out I was aro until… Less than a year ago! It feels so weird to go through years of being hyperrose and then… turn out to be aroace. It feels like a contradiction!