Yes and no? I discovered this side of myself pretty much as soon as I had internet access as a child, and lolis were my main outlet (still are), but I also remember reading some underage “literotica” that I knew was somehow life-changing. Looking back, that’s probably because it was the first non-anime representation of adult-child sex I ever experienced, which opened me up to understanding myself. This reminds me, though. I need to find more good loli anime to watch.

I did lol

I kinda did, thanks to cubs and shotas mostly

i myself googled up kiddie porn as a 10 year old and was confused why it was illegal, i never felt like “not a pedo” for sure, but when i found loli/shota i think it really clicked, since i could actually see it.