So, I talk about this a decent bit, but, I’m transendogenic. Just so we’re clear here- I say “I” because ‘we’ are all one, still, so it feels more fitting usually. Now, technically we’re traumagenic by our original nature and formation. I don’t think time is anything other than a construct, so to say ‘we already formed and cannot change our origin’ feels like a lie, but regardless… How would we even do it? The best route is separating ourselves from our original formation and trying to function more as a spiritual gateway, like we desire, but we fail to. I think a while ago, forgetting the server name, we were in a server where we were trying to figure out how to allow walk ins, and it simply wasn’t working. We ended up with just a bunch of stress splits and damage. If anyone has any help for me/us to reduce our origin dysphoria, or to help us allow walk ins or new spiritually formed headmates (in contrast to just another forced retraumatizing split) please let us know. (It’s making me pretty sad as of right now).
have you looked into tulpamancy and the tulpamancy community? i can’t say i would encourage you to chat with them face to face, since it’s kind of insufferable sometimes, but just absorbing their content and their methods and whatnot. they also tend to offer rather freeing perspectives. i myself am very deep into the philosophy of being plural and how people can be more free in their experiences so perhaps i could offer you some advice…
one thing you could try, is speaking to spirits or spiritual presences, just sort of guide it with your intention. it’s okay if they don’t respond at first, maybe just try to find a way to communicate. i find if i talk to things, after a while, they seem to stay in my mind, even for just a little bit.
another thing I’m thinking about is that you could potentially introject the concept of a headmate like this, or something among those lines. I’m not entirely sure how those things work for you all, though.
or perhaps make up lore for yourselves? make up an inner world and some sort of spiritual lore to fit it? you sort of have freedom with those types of things.
feel free to ask more or bring up other points and the like. I’m sort of scattered right now.
