Being a macrophile is actually not that cool.

In this post I just want to talk about my feelings and daily struggles. I do also mention things like suicide so be warned. Feel free to share your own thoughts, experiences and more.

Macrophilia takes the biggest part in my life. And while I enjoy sharing my love for giants and giantesses there is also a side which I do not really show. My sexuality is something which also can get in my way. And that is very often.

Love and relationships

Falling in love? Too bad because this person is not a giant. I can crush on people, finding them hot. But a deep romantic attraction to someone my size? No. To be fair I am not the oldest. There are experiences to be made. But let us say I am old enough to feel that my romantic attraction does not really work towards same sized beings. I can feel these soft feelings but it is still something different from a truly deep romantic attraction. I really just crave for a giant(ess) being on my side. Too bad that they do not exist here.

Coping methods which could help but do not

Macrophile media is all around the internet. Art, stories… Hell, even ASMRs. But there is just too much risk for me. I do not consume this stuff anymore. Because I easily get lost into parasocial relationships. I even tried to kill myself and cut my self when I experienced hate against paraphiles in the community. Another reason why I cannot look at such media anymore is that I often feel worse after that. It is just like a hole which will never get filled.

Long story short:

I have needs for something I will never get. Making my own art and writing my own stuff actually helps me a bit. But I still get frustrated every now and then.

And if you ask yourself if I experience this with any other paraphilia, no. I do not. This is so weird and I just had to share this.

If you actually read this(why? Was it not boring?) here is a cookie: (insert cookie emoji)