I wanted to try this to add more shit to the site and also to see what I’d say if I’m “saying what I want”. It’s a really loaded concept though and I’m pretty much always holding back.

Ah. A little bug on my screen. They were so small.

Anyway what even is masking? Seems people can’t agree. To an extent I think its inescabable. Language itself puts us in a box. We can’t directly express ourselves to others because we are limited by vocabulary, culture, etc. It’s hard to tell, how much of us is our true selves, how much of us is conditioning through culture, and how much of a difference there is between those things. It can be exhausting to think about. Society is such a crushing weight and there is no way to escape it. Not inside ourselves. We want to go outside and be free, and be a body, but we can’t escape our learning. And society oft hates us, so, it sucks.

There are ways to learn to accept ourselves and such, but we are still resentful of how limited we are, and how dependent we are on the ideas of outsiders to manage ideas of other outsiders that have been internalized in us.

Just the rambling of someone with a unique brain enmeshed in a restrictive culture (species-wide).