First of, I require Aesthetic attraction to have Sexual attraction, but despite having many ‘types’ and being into a broad range of features, I’m somehow still obnoxiously particular about it. Like with the Smash or Pass game, I seem to give out smashes more sparingly than everyone else. It feels like I should be able to be more lax with it, but the attraction just isn’t there, and I don’t want to smash based on priciple. I also get really easily turned off if even one part about the aesthetics isn’t good enough. Trying to find porn that’s actually arousing to me is tedious and near impossible, so now I only use my own fantasies. They better cater to my interests anyway, but it goes to show how far it goes. Then there’s this whole other layer of pickiness to my fantasies in how I pair or group beings together. Even though I might individually find 2 or more beings attractive, I often will not find them attractive together, so then it doesn’t work either. I feel like I have some hyperspecific aesthetic paraphilia or something.