How you doin’ dogfuckers? I’ve been out as zoo for years under my main name, 007[obfuscation]Bistromath. Not really worried about people knowing that, it’s just nice to make things more irritating for people who want to be irritating. I’ve rarely been in community with other zoos bc of tisms, but I’ve argued about it online pretty much since I had a keyboard and it’s always nice getting those little thank-you-for-your-service PMs from closeted zoos who see you getting yelled at.
Just wanted to check in here. My first really strong attraction to anyone else was to my dog when I was six. Zoo is so important to me that I have a little gold chain with a zeta and I unironically consider it basically a religious symbol. This one is about so much more than sex to me. It’s about even more than love. I worship dogs. I think they’re here to teach us a better way to live. There’s several other species I’m attracted to and I basically want to get the juice out for anything that wants the help, but dogs are so important to me. I want to be a dog. Somewhere inside I am a dog. That’s why the name for my fursona I’ve just barely started having feels more appropriate than my main when I’m being max volume para.
It’s been really painful, moving between a long series of living situations where it wouldn’t be practical to get a dog. I haven’t actually done zoo, or even just cared for a dog the normal way, basically since I was a kid. I feel like I’m not living the most important part of my life, and that sorrow screams through even the massive amount of trans joy I’m experiencing lately. Because I’ve never had community with zoos, I also notice that when I try to connect, I always have a feeling of bungling into a movement that isn’t for me. It feels like there’s a few different popular ways of being zoo and none of them quite feel like mine.
I have been being out as a zoo also for some time now. Especially I am attracted to dog like animals and cat like ones.
In my heart I also kinda worship non-human animals. I think it’s a reaction on the “humans above animals” point of view. I like to seriously live my attraction. For me it gives me an even closer bond to non-humans and the patience to understand them.
I love them deeply with my heart. I love them so much that I would like to be near them in a intime way.
Being a zoo has a great impact on my life and how I see things. But the greater zoo community is also nothing I feel like fiting in. I have seen so much anti para shit there.
Yeah, I’ve certainly noticed that zoos who frequent communities tend to signal really hard about how different they are from every other greek letter. It’s kind of ridiculous, pathetic, and delusional that they think they could ever get the broader society under capitalism to accept them as just regular people who happen to enjoy getting knotted. Such a genuine love of and respect for animals can’t be tolerated within empire, which is founded on exploitation. If they ever were accepted, it’d be because they’re the type to treat animals as sex toys.
Oddly though, talking to weird randos online, and even talking to normqueers one on one in meatspace, I’ve noticed that zoo is a really great thing to setup a para motte-and-bailey with. People who don’t like zoo are almost never gonna care enough to do more than irritate or disappoint you, while people who are at least tolerant enough to have a nice conversation about it will be much less likely to react if you tell them about whatever other things you might have going on.
what the fuck would anyone vote this down for
Idk that’s weird
I really relate to you feeling like a community that seems like it should be for you is not for you. I get interested in things in specific way. Even if I for example for another autistic person with the same interest I’m still off. I’m like an uncanny valley.
Your religious fixation on dogs is very cool. It reminds me of how I feel about plants. When I talk to other people who are interested it’s hard for me to really engage because more than discussing facts I have a soulful fixation that’s hard to translate to others.
Wishing you luck in living the life you want
