It’s an incredibly bad idea to look at it, because it’s not a normal type of illegal. It’s always seemed pretty obvious to me that the idea of desire by itself being enough to impair ones’ judgement is kinda bullshit; pair it with another intense pressure, such as the fear caused by seeing something your society tells people isn’t real and they’ll make sure it’s not if it is, and any sense you have will melt pretty quick. You don’t want to think about the kind of mistakes you’ll be prone to making while doing something that illegal. It is a severe cognitohazard in exactly the way antis talk about porn in general, entirely because of the consequences if you’re caught.

However, suppose you’re living the dream. I actually kind of think you have a responsibility to produce an archive to be posthumously released. The whole reason sexual shame is so entrenched is that if people don’t see a thing, they think it doesn’t exist. Doing it this way also shits on any claims the work was intended to commercially exploit the kid, since you couldn’t possibly have seen a dime and that kid’s only getting paid if they decide to sell it. This makes it harder to undermine anything that is in your work that shows happiness, curiosity, enthusiasm, etc. Making not cp, but rather chronicles of radically sex-positive childcare, and shoving them into the public record once you’re gone, is revolutionary praxis.