My sadism and masochism have combined to make cutting myself an incredibly pleasurable experience. Not as good as doing it without someone else but it’s close. I started doing it in middle school, but it took years for me to figure out why. I never resonated with the ‘self harm’ resources being thrown at me. Everyone assumed I was depressed but rly I was just horny lmao. Anyone else? I’ve always felt like a bit of a weirdo for this one.
@starbright_asterism youre not alone, im too scared to get caught with it so ive only done it on my thighs but ive always felt the same way when i see it.
theres something inherently sexy about it that i cant quite put my finger on it.
it sucks because theres not really any kind of proper space/it isnt really seen as “normal” (in quotes for obvious reasons) for sexual cutting that isnt like… riddled with knifeplay or whatever. its not knifeplay, and its not bloodplay… its just cutting!